Love hurts.

its already sunday, clock is ticking so damn fast. selalunya ckp fast kan, so skrg ni so damn gila fast, haih. tak suka act sebab sedar tak sedar, my age dah almost 24 years old. nxt year, 25 tahun..its freaking scary k? sangat.

this weekend nothing much happened except one of my childhood friend came over here, and we have couple date last night. Went to flamming, isi perut sampai hampir pecah dan 2 hours singing like mad (not me, 2 oldman yang perasaan suara sedap tu je k?). i had a good night btw, except terpaksa menahan telinga dengar pak lampir(s) menyanyi especially otherhalf. Credit to bism*i&Co. No pictures takes as we are not camwhoring freaks except on certain special day sahaja, titik.

and hari ni, spent my time dekat rumah. having lunch with home cooked. and maybe this evening nak ke bukit raja teman someone for shopping. Bukit raja je ke? sebab kat situ Jusc*o dia best.

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Currently, rasa mcm ada sesuatu missing in my heart. its like a hole and getting bigger day by day. yeah, i am happy with my life. tapi i cant figure out what is actually missing. i do several post moterm to execute what i seek for..

Money - Makan pakai cukup. ok la tu..next!

Love - i love otherhalf and i know he loves me too. so what else?
experiances and people around me makes me scared. andai kata jodoh aku tak panjang dengan otherhalf, aku redha. aku mungkin tak secantik and sebaik and semulia perempuan that every men is wishing for, but i always try my best for him. walaupun kadang kadang perangai aku yang sangat annoying, tapi antara sebab aku jadi annoying mcm tu adalah untuk dia tahu yang aku perlukan dia. sangat.

4 years being with him, aku bersyukur dengan bahagia yang aku rasa sekarang. dan andai kata tahun tahun yang mendatang, jodoh aku bukan dengan dia, aku masih bersyukur kerana diberi peluang mengenali dia.

* i am crying when i typed this*

dont be misunderstood people, i am doing really fine with him. i still inlove and forever will, cuma i learnt something, never took for granted with what u have now. sekelip mata shaja semua itu akan menghilang jika sudah tertulis bahawa jodoh aku bukan dengan nya.

Career - Walaupun kerja aku tak sehebat kerja kerja orang lain, tapi aku bersyukur for the experiance yang aku kutip selama hampir 8 bulan ini. Cuma aku masih tak cekap dalam time management and also macam mana nak membalas bila orang membuli aku. Selalu kena buli! shit ah.

Family - i love them, seriously. Cuma sekarang aku merajuk sikit. terasa hati dengan orang tua takkan nak balas dengan marah kan? so aku ambik pendekatan untuk berdiam diri.
i think this is a reason why i'm feeling blues.

titik.