for the first time buka puasa sorang sorang. for the first time jugak aku buka puasa dengan air masak and airmata.

aku buang semua lauk yang aku beli, lauk which supposed to eat for two. and i cried like hell.

susah sangatkah nak berkorban sikit untuk aku?

for all this while,
kalau aku merajuk, aku juga yg memujuk.
kalau aku marah, aku yang menenangkan diri sendiri.
kalau aku terluka, aku yang mengubati dri sendiri.

dan sampai satu tahap, rajuk aku..marah aku..dan luka aku tidak diendah.

who i am to you?

did you know how hurt i am?

entering 5 years relationship is not easy as i thought. the more stable relationship you have, the more you intend to ignore your partner.

sebab?

5 tahun, nothing to worry, nothing to loose.

i'm hurt.

i thought you'll come to surprise me. or maybe you will call me to say sorry BEFORE u received my last text.

and again, I'm wrong.

I AM WRONG!!

and now i know, i am nothing to you. NOTHING!





i dont want to shout to the whole world apa yang aku rasa, tapi disebabkan i have no one to talk to, nobody to rely on..aku terpaksa menaip. at least, it will stop me from crying.

i had 3 spoon of sedative and painkillers, i really hope it'll help me to sleep, and tomorrow nak bangun dengan bersemangat and finish my assignment before Friday. Nite blog.