crying is my middle name.

saya selalu menyusahkan orang. seriously.

orang yang paling saya selalu susahkan adalah En Mazlan dan bininya. Tak pernah buat mereka tenang. everyday kept calling me to make sure i live my life perfectly. Selalu pesan drive carefully. rasanya dah dekat 4 juta kali. Haih.

And again, i had an accident. aku accident tak pernah lagi langgar orang, syukur. Tapi orang yang selalu langgar aku!! Shytes. It happened otw nak ke office. i mean pagi pagi buta and i was all alone! sebagai manusia yang muka nampak ganas tapi hakikatnya manja yang amat, i'm crying like aku dah nazak and nak mati 2 hari lagi. Kereta? jangan cakap lah. teruk.

Tensionnn ok! Being me who knows nothing about car, panic sangat time tu. when ppl asked me aku pakai insuran apa, dengan bangangnya aku tak tahu insuran apa aku pakai!! buduhs. its all messed up. Sedih ada geram ada takut kena marah pon ada.

Kalau claim insuran, memang lambat so my parent once again tolong bayarkan for me. Terharuuuu sangat ok? they are always with me whenever i need them. like always. ALWAYS!
walaupun aku anak sulung dan sepatutnya aku lah yang guide adik adik and take care of them but turned to be, aku lah yang selalu bawak masalah to them and paling manja among others.

although aku dah kerja, tapi still tak dapat bantu diaorang, infact i'm the one who mintak duit lagi from them. memalukan!! but that's the truth. I dont understand what happened to me but seriously i failed to manage my own financial. Money flows like water. hujung bulan its all gone.

No saving.

Bila ada masalah, be it big or small what i need to do is crying like a baby and what i know is i have a savior who always there to help me. Be it my parent or other.half. But most of the time my parent lah. Even bergaduh dengan other.half i can crying like other.half left me for other girls.

GILAAAAAA!! i know its crazy for 24 year old soon to be a woman like me.

but that's me. For others, i may look different; ganas, tough, berdikari, tak manja lansung.

But for them, i am still a little girl who knows nothing about life. and that's the real me.