November's nightmare :(

8th November, i should remark this date to be the most scary and hopefully no more after this.

My 2nd sister, hazerah was found collapsed in the toilet around 3pm. it happened very fast and everytime we talked about that, we burst into tears. It such a nightmare. She cannot see, cannot move and keep on vommit. what she only do is crying and asked for help. Poor girl, if only i know how hard she's going through this..

she was admitted to h*usm, and it takes almost 4 hrs to be warded! seriously, sedih sangat tengok dia. and i'm still crying when i typed this. She just only 21 years old, sungguh berat dugaan mu ya Allah..

i received phone call from dad. Not very clear information as he cried. I managed to get an early flight and when i arrived, she still struggling at emergency room.

The next day, dia kena buat angioram, Doc will insert a camera from your hips to the brain to examine anything related to the brain, and she was diagnosed having (AVM) salur darah tak normal
in her brain. Yes, there's a blood clot in her brain!! Astaghfirullahalzim..

what makes me cry is, when i asked her how was the things, dia cakap sakit sangat. She was screaming for help and been scolded by the doctors. Poor girl..dia cakap macam ada benda yang sangat panas running through her body and like a robot run here and there inside the brain. Sumpah sedih tengok dia as she was prohibited to have any foods and liquids. ( up until now, its been 5 days already)

the pain aint stop there. it continuously happened and became worst. Yesterday ( 11 Nov) she was on high pain. She was really on high pain, she couldnt breath and went under comma. Docs finally decided to go for the operations straightly after that.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya i couldnt bear to see her at that time. Her head was shaved, and she need machine support to breath. Her eyes is closed, but the tears are there. Azie, kaklong mungkin tak tahu time tu azie sedar ke tak, tapi kaklong tau azie sakit sangat..kaklong tak sanggup tengok azie time tu.
Kepala Azie dah botak, azie bernafas pakai mesin. Everyone is crying..

The operation took almost 7 hours. time tu mungkin azie tidur and azie tak rasa sakit. Kaklong tak putus doa dengan tuhan, so does everyone. We just want the best for Azie..we love you sayang..Azie adik yang paling rajin tolong umi kat dapur..Azie suka masak..thats why we always support you in culinary studies..tapi nampaknya Azie kena postponed dulu exam azie which schedule to on this 20 Nov..

Alhadulillah, Operation success. Azie came out from OT with so much of tubes here and there. Its all about PAIN! Doc said it will took almost 2 days for the patient to wake up. But Azie sangat kuat..she's been awake after 10hrs of comma. Well done sister! we admire your strength!

Doc said, there's no more blood clot and she will under recovery process. Damn, its not easy seing Azie in this stage also. Her hand and leg has been tied takut banyak sangat pergerakan.
Tak sanggup nak masuk tengok Azie, sebab everytime she see us, she cried and asked for help :(

tadi masa kaklong masuk azie menangis kuat sangat and mulut azie macam nak cakap something tapi tak jelas..Sorry sebab paksa azie explain banyak kali..rupanya dia sakit sebab ada tube besar kat bawah kepala dia..nobody try to underestand her especially bloody nurses!! when i told them my sister was in pain they kept telling me dah bagi pain killers. Hey women, can you please try to go and asked the patient dia sakit kat mana??

i've been told that 2 patient will be monitored by 1 nurse, and theres a table in between the bed. But i NEVER SAW these table occupied. evrytime is left empty. How would you realize if the patient was  asking for help??? Azie bukan ada suara nak menjerit, and i bet the nurse will scold her if kept crying all the time..

poor Azie..kaklong harap malam ni Azie tidur lena, jangan bangun k sayang? and tomorrow wake up with smile, ready to run!

ya Allah, Kau kuatkan adikku..kau permudahkan segala urusanya, kau ampunkan lah dosanya, kau ringan kan bebannya ya Allah..Kau Panjangkan Umurnya ya Allah..sesungguhnya aku tak mampu lagi melihat dia menanggung kesakitan..

I love you sayang, kaklong promise lepas azie sembuh kita pergi jalan jalan ok? Please be strong please...