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to whom it may concern.

for the first time in my life..ppl do this to me.
besar sgt ke my mistakes smpai kamu buat sy mcm ni?
sy tahu sy banyak buat salah..sy tahu sy selalu sakitkan hati kamu..sy tahu sy selalu marah kamu tanpa sebab..
tapi trust me.i do that because of no reason.
pls dun do to me like this..it hurts me alot. it ruin my day so teribbly.
u said "try to appreciate ppl around u"
jes bcause of my silly mistakes. u judge me dat i never appreciate you?
what the hell are you talking about?

i dont ask u 2 fall with me wherever i down..but i need u beside me to get my strength wherever i lost that..i nver asked u going through all this hardness with me. i just asked u to looked and beware of me whenever i lost my way..
is that 2 much 4u?

i know, u already reach your limit bcuz of my silly mistakes. but cant u teach me in the way that will not suffering me like this?
kamu bahagia tgk sy mcm ni?
u said bcuz u love me ,thats why u teach me like this.
what kind of love did u meant like this?
if this is your love..i think i better stay away frm this. and i think is the best 4 u.

bila sy bukan lagi syg kamu..
mungkin hidup kamu lebih bahagia dr sekarang..
mungkin juga kamu punya peluang untuk mencari 'soulmate' yang betul2 faham jiwa kamu.
oh ya, tidak ada manusia pun dalam dunia ini akan faham orang lain seperti kamu faham diri kamu sendiri.

sy tak pernah salahkan kamu..
in fact saya tahu sy yang salah..
sy tahu itu dan kamu tak perlu banyak kali remind saya semua tu.
sy tak mahu bagi reason that human makes mistakes.
sebab sy sendiri benci that kind of reason.
but i already ask ur forgiveness dan sy memang betul2 asked for it.
but it seems like u still mad at me.

kamu jangan ingat kamu tak pernah sakitkan hati orang lain
and at this time kamu bukan saja dah sakitkan hati saya.
u do more than that.
tp sy tak marah kamu kali ni..mungkin sebab sy dah banyak kali marah kamu..
infact kamu ckp sy even suka throw my anger towards u bcuz of no reason kan?
jadi sy tak ada hak untuk marah kamu after this.
buat lah apa yang kamu suka.

u know that i love u so much kan?
jangan tipu..kamu tau tu.
kamu tahu sangat susah for me nak delete all of our memories kan?
and kamu tahu sy tak boleh hidup tanpa kamu kan?
kau tahu semua tu.
dan mungkin itu yg buat kamu sangat egoistik.

sekali lagi..
sy tak pernah salahkan kamu.
itu semua salah saya.
put the blame on me.

and for now..
eventhough its hard for me to get through this.
its hurt me even more than what u concern about.
just live ur life as wonderful as u want it to be.

thank you for everything.