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whenever I'm feeling happy, sad and LOST *presently*, i would come across here, jot down every single things that come across my mind. like now..*sigh*

within this few months of working, i really really rasa sangat lost. Currently with the massive task and neverending workload, i really need self help. no one can help yourself better than yourself, kan? and yeah sometimes i can whine my loved ones but at the end of the day, its my mess and my burden kan? so i have to deal with it no matter what. *sigh*

i didnt says that i dont like my job. i do. but the problem is i still cant adapt with my working environment here. the people are cool and nice, but the job task is not really nice. otherhalf insist me to find another job that suits me *suit for him is working in the office and nothing to do with TRAVELING and meeting people outside* , walaupun otherhalf sangat cool but sometimes dia overprotective kan? heh. tapi he's right. it just that i don't want to rush for seeking a new job just because of these matters. dan kalau boleh i want to be here for about 1-2 years, try to figure out what i actually want for my life's career.
unless dpt kerja dgn government or GLC yang besar2 then settle down! phew..how i wish.

dan dan dan, tajuk utama sekarang is, COST of LIVING IN THE CITY!
dulu masa belajar, duit dah habis terus call banker *parents* mintak duit dengan rasa tak bersalahnya, and now?
OMG. i tell you susah okay nak survive dengan duit sendiri. nak bezakan portion for living, for shopping OMG OMG susah gila!
duit gaji tak cukup! and i want more..how about saving? heh. lansung tak boleh. habistu mcm mana nak saving untuk kahwin?
so people, dont ask about when i will get married okay. long wayyyyyyyyy to go *sigh*

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