Friends, please read.

its 4.02am, Saturday morning.

Sleepless.

i miss surfing the internet. Blog hoping from one to another, read about others life. I love to do that. and yeah, this is what i'm doing right now.

while browsing from page to page, i stumbled upon my old friend(s) of mine. Yeah, some of them are happily married.. Most of the post is about the journey thruout pregnancy, what she cooks for her husband, and her baby mildstone.World nowadays would prefer us to call them SAHM rather than a housewife. "its a Stay-At-Home-Mom". Mostly SAHM is an educated mom who sacrifies her career for being a full time Mom.

I miss my girlfriends like seriously. I dont have BFF but i have a bunch of goodfriends who i can rely on during my boring time. Yeah, just during my boring time. Slap me if i wrong.

Most of the time, we were busy with our own life. Juggling between work, rest and all took almost 80% of the week. Being far from the city is another reason why i seldomly going out during weekdays. Saturday is a day for me to sleep like no one business, laundries, house chores, and of course, seeing otherhalf as well. So, my saturday simply gone like a split of second. While Sundae is a time to refresh myself, potato coaching and if rajin sket, will drove myself to the nearest Jusco to feast my eyes. Heh!

So? when is the time for friends? No. No time at all. So whenever i feel like to eat and lepak somewhere, then only i texted them and paksa join. Haha. So agree with me? friends now are just to occupied your boring time whenever your boyfriend and your life task is unavailable.

But somehow like now, i miss lepaking with them. I miss the gossips. Yess, we are now running thru the stage where we couldnt care more about our friends. Life now is more important. Err, boyfriend is more important, thats the fact. Slap me again if i'm wrong.

I miss the time when we go out and lepak somewhere, freaking out at the idea of getting pregnant, taking cares of babies, saying goodbye to our youth but yet we yearn for a family of our own. Brought back the memories of sleepover during highschool, cutting class during degree studies, gettting into the craziest situation ( as for me, the moment that i agree to tindik my nose, and i do it twice!!, permed my hair like a mee maggi, yeahh alot!!) and the most is learning how to be a grown up. *Sigh

I love mengumpat with besties, gushing over people's dress and shoe, singging along like no one business walaupun just paka speaker PC, laughing out loud like nobody cares. ahhh, i miss it :(
Can u imagined doing that with a guy? with Otherhalf? Heh. Mintak maap lah. They will get all technical on us, kalau tak pon menggatal je lebih. Pffftttttttt. Boringg!

Sometimes we girls just wanna talk about lighter things. kan? Friends, where are you? Are u reading this?

:'( I hate being grown ups.


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We are planning to get married next year, Please pray yah? and now i'm still confuse either i want to proceed with an engagement or just agree with otherhalf to have a small gathering like merisik just to let both family communicate with each other. Haih.
I wanted an engagement, but its been 6 years already..do i need that? Better plan for a big day teruskan? lagi jimat.and to make even worst, i dont prepare anything at all. 2 bulan lagi nak raya..baju pon tak jahit! Aiyoooo :(

i think i just need a close gathering, let them mingle, enjoy the foods, and siap! i always wanted my wedding to be simple, direct and enjoyable. Bukan orang makan nasik berpeluh2, sebab panas. I wanted a night event but of course tok wan will not agree. so does otherhalf family. Susah betol kena ikut adat ni! kan?

Haih Haih Haih. Kahwin pon susah, tak kahwin lagi susah!

Friends, i need you. All of you.